Tonight I suffered from a big anxiety crisis and instead of one more #instagram post I made up my mind to write a special article on my blog.
First of all what is ANXIETY? According to the NHS (National health service), “Anxiety is a feeling of unease, such as worry or fear, that can be mild or severe. Everyone has feelings of anxiety at some point in their life”.
Thank you NHS to comfort me in saying that we all suffer from this at one point, however it doesn’t help me to get rid of it.
I think that a main step is to try to understand what makes you feeling this way. Is your anxiety the symptom of:
- Panic disorder
- Phobias (such as agoraphobia or claustrophobia)
- Post-traumatic stress disorder
- Social anxiety disorder
I luckily don’t have to deal with all these symptoms and I am neither doctor so I’ll keep discussing about my own experience. I’m not sure it’s always easy to distinguish the proper reason but mine is quite clear, panic disorder is the one.
Since I suffered from some food troubles I became stickler and need everything to be in order and done to feel quite relaxed. I’m in a big changing phase in my life, my social life has changed the last few days and I also have some closed deadlines to deal with. The goal here is not to talk about my personal life so I’ll stay there with the details.
From there I think it’s quite obliged to go through an uncontrollable crisis, the difference is gonna be how each one of us deal with this. Most of the time, with the anxiety increasing I instinctly call my mum. I guess how stressful it shall be for her but she can hear my crisis and helping me to deal with it. The only fact that I can hear her voice reassure me even if we live far from each other. I know that she always say to me “breathe with your stomach Claire”, “Relax and keep calm”. It often takes me a long time to be able to breathe properly and coming back to normal but except the witch face I have due to the flowed make up on my face I am fine afterwards.
I would prefer not having to go through this phase before to take a step back, breathing and thinking about how to manage my problems but it’s like this for the moment and I have to learn how to manage my anxiety better.
I don’t know if this has been helpful, at least it’s been for me to express myself about it. I think it’s something we shall not been afraid to talk about (for sure I’m afraid to be judged about it and considering as crazy) and to share with the one we are closed to.
“Life is ten percent what you experience and ninety percent how you respond to it.” Dorothy M. Neddermeyer